landileigh’s little world

i got my new glasses! these are my new computer glasses. don’t i look snazzy?? now i can really see everyone’s d-365 pictures nice and clear!

isn’t it amazing how you see diabetes in the littlest thing? this is the start button to my laptop. my gateway to the diabetes online community. and it looks exactly like the symbol for diabetes!

you may think you have seen this pen before. YOU HAVE! you saw it here:  January 2008 Day 96

THANK YOU LILI! i’ve been wanting a NovoJunior Pen! now i can do half units! my pharmacy doesn’t have this available and if i can’t get it through Kaiser’s pharmacy i can’t get it. Thanks to Lili (who couldn’t use this) it has found a new and happy home! Isn’t the D-OC WONDERFUL?!?

my first thought when seeing this vehicle in front of me: this man is CRAZY! what a huge misconception! we were both going to Kaiser-Permanente, and the man was just as normal as can be.

People with diabetes also have misconceptions. That they are fragile, or can’t eat what every one else is eating, or that they’ll get every complication. NOT TRUE!

one of the biggest diabetes misconceptions is you can’t eat fast food. This meal consumed all of 11 carbs! a double meat burger with mustard and grilled onions, protein style and a large diet coke. In-N-Out Burger is the diabetics best friend!

this is my holly. being totally over dramatic as 17 year old girls can be. she also has sensory integration disorder and today was a day of total shutdown. we haven’t had one in quite awhile. yet, i don’t let that get me down. it’s just another day.

one good thing about it. i didn’t think about diabetes all day long as i seem to have done lately. it was just what it is. sometimes all of the other things take precidence over diabetes.

 BETH ASKED ME: “What is Sensory Integration Disorder?”

As it pertains to Holly, i found this on Wikipedia:

Sensory Integration Dysfunction (SID, also called sensory processing disorder) is a neurological disorder causing difficulties with processing information from the five classic senses (vision, auditory, touch, olfaction, and taste), the sense of movement (vestibular system), and/or the positional sense (proprioception).

For those with SID, sensory information is sensed normally, but perceived abnormally. This is not the same as blindness or deafness, because, unlike those disorders, sensory information is sensed by people with SID, but the information tends to be analyzed by the brain in an unusual way that may cause distress or confusion.

 Sensory integration disorders vary between individuals in their characteristics and intensity. Some people are so mildly afflicted, the disorder is barely noticeable, while others are so impaired they have trouble with daily functioning.

Children can be born hypersensitive or hyposensitive to varying degrees and may have trouble in one sensory modality, a few, or all of them. Hypersensitivity is also known as sensory defensiveness. Examples of hypersensitivity include feeling pain from clothing rubbing against skin, an inability to tolerate normal lighting in a room, a dislike of being touched (especially light touch) and discomfort when one looks directly into the eyes of another person.

 Holly is Hypersensitive.

my phone. it has bested me. the one thing i wanted to do this weekend was to talk to one of my D-friends. dang phone decided to not be cooperative! phone tag has been our game.

but i didn’t allow it to raise my blood sugars, i just went along with it. for now. DANG PHONE!

this is my belle. she’s extremely sweet, but a little dim. i always says she’s got a little judy holliday in her. she doesn’t give a damn about diabetes, just that mama has her food in her dish at dinner time. just loving and petting her, i don’t think about diabetes at all.

i was doing a BG test right before going to bed on top of my clean nightgown and comforter. can you see what is wrong with this picture? i’ve never had that happen!

just like this quick break between rainstorms, the diabetes online community is my “blue sky” between the highs and lows of diabetes. i saw these words, and it is what i ask for 2008 for all of my D-OC friends. better days.

And you ask me what i want this year
and i try to make this good and clear
just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days

cause i don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
and designer love and empty things,
just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days

so take these words
and sing out loud
cause everyone is forgiven now
cause tonight’s the night the world begins again

and its someplace simple where we could live
and something only you can give
and let’s faith and trust and peace while we’re alive

and the one poor child who saved this world
and there’s 10 million more who probably could
if we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

so take these words
and sing out loud
cause everyone is forgiven now
cause tonight’s the night the world begins again

i wish everyone was loved tonight
and somehow stop this endless fight
just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days

so take these words
and sing out loud
cause everyone is forgiven now
cause tonight’s the night the world begins again

cause tonight’s the night the world begins again

i have been dealing with a few days of depression. mostly due to the fact of reflection on the past year and trying to make resolutions for the new year. my disbelief in getting this disease. all due to the fact that if i had only gone to the hospital sooner for my gallbladder, i would have never gotten the bile duct obstruction, which would never have caused the pancreatitis and on and on. NOT FAIR! not bad enough i’ve got Stage 3 CKD, but now i have to deal with this. and i’m not Type 2, i’m frigging Type 1. NOT FAIR! i wish i could get the world to begin again and not deal with this. <sigh>